I feel as though I'm falling short of Gods expectations of me. And I'm not talking big things here. I'm talking about,what should be,smaller things. Well not that they are small. I'm talking about understanding the Bible and praying.
When I read the Bible I can't seem to understand what the meaning is. Or maybe I should say it takes reading it over and over to figure it out. In my faith class everyone seems to understand it more than I do. And when it is explained I'm like oh ok I get it now. I've never been much of a reader. I never thought of myself as a slow learner,but this is proving to be the case. Then I read, on a web site I visit, a question someone had about not understanding the Bible. The answer given was that because the reader did'nt truly believe what they were reading the Holy Spirit was'nt giving them the ability to understand it. Well I don't like that answer at all. Because I do believe and I will not back pedal on that fact. I'll just keep reading and re-reading as long as it takes.
Now on the praying side of this. I can't seem to pray, for any length of time, without my mind wandering off. Like if I'm praying for someone then all of a sudden I'm thinking about something I did with them. Part of my prayers are asking for forgiveness because I wandered off. But I'll just keep on praying and hopefully will get better at it. I think God will be glad when that happens.
God Bless
By the way. Only Adam and Eve created and listening to God's command to go forth and multiply. Told you, takes a while.
I can relate to the wandering. When I'm walking and praying it goes something lke this, "Dear God, please comfort Kathy and I pray that Ellie's test will be clear of cancer and help Cheri to feel better...."Gee I wonder how Cheri is today and if she is going shopping ? Shopping, oh I need to go to the store....I will have to take Candace, hope she listens.... You get the picture. But I think it's normal for your mind to wander. I love you and you are on the right track.
ReplyDeleteI learned a long time ago that the wandering is part of the prayer process. You need to think of those times as God trying to bring something into your mind. Maybe you're thinking about an interaction or something that happened because God wants to teach you something. Let your mind wander and embrace it.
ReplyDeleteAs for the Holy Spirit and understanding, I agree: that is a stupid answer. The most "holy" people in the world don't understand all of the Bible - it's impossible. God is just way too big for that.
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