DO I TRUST GOD ?

I've been asking myself this question a lot lately. I have come to the conclusion that I don't. I'm at a point in this journey where it's easy to talk the talk. But it's another to walk the walk. I still do things I shouldn't and don't do things I should. And it's all because I don't trust God. I'm not throwing in the towel. I guess it will take more praying and learning. And I pray one day I can totally trust God.

GOD BLESS

REALLY ?

Last weak at church we were talking about sin and confessing our sins. Actually we were listening to a pastor talk about it. He talked about how we kind of throw all our sins together and ask them all to be forgiven. He talked about how we should be more specific when we confess and ask for forgivness. It all sounded like good advice and helped me get on a path when I ask to be forgiven. And I ask a lot.

Then he said something that struck me as odd. He said if you have an addiction to something, which I do, the reason you can't break the addiction is because you don't believe God is enough for you. Your addiction is taking the place of God. Really? I never thought, before putting a dip in my mouth, hey maybe if I read the Bible I wouldn't need this. I chew because I like to chew. The addiction came after. I don't think it has anything to do with God. That being said I do believe I will need Gods help to break this addiction.

Here is my reasoning for questioning this. Couldn't this be applied to everything I do? Is my going fishing taking the place of God? I fish for many of the same reasons I chew. Mainly they both relax me. Does it mean I can't find relaxation thru God? No. I fish because I like to fish. I'm sure the word addiction has a lot to do with what the pastor said. I'm just having a hard time figuring it out.

GOD BLESS

UNDERSTATEMENT

When I started this journey a pastor said "It's not going to be easy!". That was the understatement of the year. I knew it would be hard just didn't realize how hard. Every day, many times a day, choices have to be made. And it's a choice only I can make. I'm usually pretty sure what the right choice is, It's the actually doing it thats usually hard.

Back when the WHAT WOULD JESUS DO? wrist bands were popular, I remember thinking how hoky they seemed. Now I know why you don't see them around. People knew what He would do but it's the actual doing it thats a problem. I think mine would say I KNOW WHAT JESUS WOULD DO--LORD GIVE ME THE STRENGTH TO DO THE SAME--AND IF I DON'T, PLEASE FORGIVE ME. Ok, that's not gonna fit on anyones wrist.

I heard a quote the other day. I don't remember who said it. And i'm not sure if this is actually the way it was said. But it went something like, It's not the parts of the Bible I don't understand that I have a problem with, It's the parts I do. But I do take comfort in the fact that God loves me just the way I am. He knows who I was, who I am, and who I'm gonna be. He also knows what I did, what I'm doing, and what I'm gonna do. And still He loves me. Is He awesome or what? God Bless!