ASSBAG

I was driving home the other day and passed an older guy picking up leaves in his yard. Heres the conversation I had with myself....Wow, he's pretty old to be doing that........I should stop and help him......I'll go home and change my clothes first-knowing damn well I wouldn't go back....I am such an assbag!!......I'm really starting to piss myself off !

GOD BLESS

FISHERS OF MEN

After not steelhead fishing for 1 1/2 years, because of a shoulder problem, I decided to go again. So I'm fishing, relaxing, enjoying the scenery, reflecting, praying. Ya, everything but catching fish. Then I had this thought. I know why Jesus chose fishermen to follow Him. The poor saps were probably like me. Not catching a thing when some guy comes by and says to follow him cause he has something new to fish for.

GOD BLESS

RECALCULATING

I heard on the radio this morning how the Holy Spirit is like a gps. And how when you get off coarse you will hear.....recalculating. I sure can relate to this message lately. Seems like thats all I hear. Which means I ain't following directions very well. And it's really starting to piss me off. I sure am glad we have a patient God.

GOD BLESS

DEATH

My brother had a heart attack this week. He died and then was brought back to life. I hope I have the balls to have a conversation with with him about it. We really ain't very close. And the last I knew my brother doesn't believe in God. Or it could be that he's like I was. I believed in God, just didn't understand the part about having to accept the gift.

Any how, it sure makes you realize that you're not in control of the future. Or the present for that matter. I pray I can have a life changing conversation with my brother and all of my family. I don't know why it's so hard. Come on, it's great news, why not share it?

GOD BLESS

WHAT IF ?

What if God took vacations? What if He went away and didn't think about me for 12 days? I'm sorry to say that I just did that. I went on vacation and didn't take my Bible with me. It's not that I forgot to take it. But decided not to for a few different reasons. There was a Bible in the room. Total reading time 1/2 hour. My praying time was way down. Mostly, dear God please let this plane land safely! A sad state of affairs for sure.

Other than that Maui is the most relaxing and beautiful place I've ever been. I can't even put it into words.
Dear God, nice job!

CHURCH / BUSINESS

A church is also a business in a way. You're not making a profit, I hope, but still you have to pay bills and make payroll. My question is, how do you seperate the two? You have a hierarchy that gets together and makes all the decisions. Then they bring it forward and the congregation votes on it. But it seems to me like the decision has been made before the vote is even taken. How do you vote against something that's been on the fast track for a month or so? I understand you're praying about it and you're hopefully doing what the Lord wants you to do. But I would think some people would be led in the opposite direction. Shouldn't we at least wait till the vote is over before talking like it's a done deal? It just seems to me like you are running the risk of alienating some people.

I read in an annual report that if you are related to an employee of the church you can't be a part of the hierarcy. In a business this makes perfect sense. But for a church I'm not sure. We trust you enough that you can volunteer as much as you want. But hold on there, we don't trust you enough to make a decision on your relatives pay raise. I would hope a christian would make the same decision no matter if they are related or not.

Well I'm not a member of a church anyhow so I guess it really doesn't matter. Just something I've been thinking about.
GOD BLESS

ONE YEAR

It's been one year since I became a Christian. I've been thinking about how I've changed. I've come to the conclusion that I havn't. Ya, I'm probably a "better" person. But looking at the big picture, I'm failing. I've been learning a lot. It's taking what I learn and putting it to use that I have a problem with. But I realize this is a journey. And if I can keep growing my faith, the Lord will take care of the rest.



In the past year I've heard a lot of people say, "the Lord spoke to me". And I wonder why He isn't speaking to me. But if I'm honest about it, it's not that He isn't talking, it's that I'm not listening. That is the hard part and it shouldn't be. I keep holding on when I should let go. And letting go when I should hold on. I need to start drawing some lines in the sand and see where the Lord takes me from there. Hey, that would make a good song.



GOD BLESS