I DON'T BELIEVE IN GOD.........ANYMORE

I've heard of and talked to a few people who no longer believe in God. And I think their reasoning is flawed. They seem to think that because bad things happen, it means theres not a God. And they also seem to think that Christians are perfect people.

My question is, why. Are they being taught wrong. Are they not looking for answers or did they look and still come to the conclusion theres no God? Just wondering.

GOD BLESS

OLD TESTAMENT

Ok, what's up with all the killing in the Old Testament? Joshua? Hello? That dude was kickin ass and takin names. I guess it was all ok since God was pretty much the corner man for him. But my question is why. Sure they were going to the land of milk and honey but why kill everyone in your path?

This may very well be the most stupid question yet but I really don't get it. I'll keep reading and maybe it will make more sense to me but I don't think so. Oh well if this was easy everyone would be doing it.

COPENHAGEN

I havn't had any chewing tobacco since last Wednesday. I've stopped chewing in the past only to start back up for whatever reason. So I won't say I'll never chew again. I will say I think I have a better shot at it this time.



I was talking about quiting for a long time this time. I really couldn't figure out why. I was praying about it, which I thought would make it easier. But it didn't. If anything it was harder this time than any other. Then I realized that although I was praying about it, my prayers were all about me. Just what I needed and wanted. If that makes any sence to you.



When I got that figured out it was much easier this time. My physical withdrawal from nicotine was not bad at all. I know, I can hear my old self saying "whatever!" But seriously there is no question in my mind who is responsible for this. Usually I will get blurry vision for a few hours, that never happened this time. I usually get this numbness and buzzing in the top of my head which usually lasts a good 24 hours. This did happen, but only for a short time. So I thank the Lord for making it possible for me to stop chewing. Also , thanks to my wife for putting up with my behavior for a few days as my being irritable was the same as always.

GOD BLESS

THAT'S NOT FUNNY !

If you know me, you know I kid around about everything. I don't say things to hurt peoples feelings but, as my wife has informed me, sometimes I do. In the past when my wife would point it out to me, I would say "I was just kidding with them" she would say "They don't know that! " And I would tell her, "well I was kidding and they should know it so it's their problem." Then it would be on with my life never to give it another thought.

This past Sunday I said something to a couple as they were leaving church. Then my wife and I have our same discussion. "Did you know them?" Me-"Well I know him." Wife-" you shouldn't have said it." Me-" I was kidding them." This is where the same old story took a twist. I just could not stop thinking about it. Could I have offended them? I guess. Could they really have thought I was serious? I guess.

Well it bothered me enough that I decided not to wait till next Sunday to find out . I sent an email and I'm glad I did. Turns out his wife was very upset. I felt bad and an appology seemed so lame. I mean I probably ruined her day. It makes me wonder how many other times my wife has been right about this. Guess I need to start watching what I say to people. Or it would probably be easier to say I'm only kidding after everything I say.

PRAYER LIST

Now I know why they have prayer lists. I seriously have to start one. Start with family then keep expanding the circle. Seems like every day it's...Oh crap I forgot blah blah blah. I guess I didn't realize how much praying is involved here. And the more people you meet the more praying you're doing. And the closer you get to people the more praying because they suck you into praying for their circle. Maybe there is a blanket prayer that will cover everyone. Just kidding, but this could easily be a full time job. Oh well, if you read this I pray God will walk with you every step you take......... And you're out of the circle!

GOD BLESS

AM I DREAMING?

Friday night I'm going to a mens retreat at church. Saturday morning I'm going on an excursion with my class from church. When did this happen? This is way out of my comfort level. I can't remember, probably because it never happened, when the last time was that I did something with other guys and no drinking was involved. In my world it's what guys do when they get together. Golf - drink...fish - drink.... picnic -drink...go Christmas shopping for wives- drink, first, then maybe shop.

Usually I just wouldn't go to these functions. Mr. excuses could always come up with some reason not to go. But here I go. We'll see how it turns out. I'm sure it will be a good experience for me. If not I'll just hit a bar on my way home. I'm kidding.....I hope
GOD BLESS

READING VS. STUDYING

I've been listening to Chuck Swindoll on the radio in the morning. He's been going thru Romans from the Bible. It seems like when I hear someone else explain things from the Bible, I'm like, why didn't I get that when I read it? Maybe that's why theres Bible studies.

Then I realized I'm reading the Bible and not studying the Bible. Which sucks because the class I took at church had like 3 or 4 different ways to read the Bible. And by using any of them would have led me to the study part. So I guess I need to re-think my Bible reading time. Or being the lazy ass I am I can just keep listening to him.

BOD BLESS